Navigating gender’s fluidity in a sea of apps with ‘#femMASCULINE’

When San Francisco artist Kevin Seaman walked into the Lone Star or different related LGBTQ areas dressed as his outspoken and cartoonishly hyperfeminine drag persona LOL McFiercen, the ordinarily assured performer would immediately really feel acutely uncomfortable.

“I felt so weird, because I was used to being seen as a sexual person in that space, having a brotherly relationship in that space, rather than as my drag queen self,” Seaman says. “I used to be ashamed when people called me by my drag name or by ‘she’ in a leather bar or bear bar.”

Now, he says, he doesn’t give a shit, however it took some remedy to reconcile his extra sexual facet—which is to say, his attraction to masculine {men}—together with his feminist politics. 

Or, as Seaman places it, “I healed the rift between my gay side and my queer side.”

After having labored by way of this thorny dilemma for years, Seaman now presents the fruits of his creative and emotional labor. #femMASCULINE (at Brava’s Cabaret at Brava Theater Heart by way of October 12), examines the evolution of queer male sexuality from the angle of somebody born within the earliest section of the millennial technology.

Kevin Seaman

As a highschool scholar through the days when asking “age/sex/loc” was the way you met new folks in AOL chatrooms, Seaman’s sexual maturation occurred in tandem with the evolution of Connection Websites websites as locations of pseudo-enlightened box-checking. Seaman’s gender id is fluid, and fluidity is—by definition—against mounted classes. Therefore, the concept of being “femMasculine,” whereby gender expression isn’t a ultimate vacation spot however a degree on a seamless line.

“I wanted people to have to question the process I went through as a young gay boy, having to adapt to what I was seeing around me to be sexually attractive,” he says. 

Seaman doesn’t let his personal complicity on this confining system go uninterrogated. 

“Once I got deeper into it, I realized how many emotions, how much history, and how many blocks I had,” he says, noting that he was initially drawn to bear tradition as a result of it allowed him “to be chunky” in an surroundings in any other case dominated by pictures of skinny or match our bodies. 

“I am attracted to different aspects of toxic masculinity,” he provides. “Thinking about connecting through media portals and thinking about gay porn—which is stripped of all feminism, of setting rules, of consent—what does it mean to set that up knowing it’s a fantasy, but we’re fantasizing about the idea of patriarchy?”

To assist audiences alongside, femMasculine makes use of its personal app (developed by Jolene Engo) in addition to a bit the place Seaman makes the viewers “do a dial-up internet orchestra with me” in addition to log onto AOL chatrooms with closeted suburban dads who need him to mail them his underwear. 

“When we’re filling out a profile, you can take a picture,” Seaman says of the app, including that there are menus with choices that “you have to conform to in order to gain access to gay male sexuality.”

As most sexual adults with a smartphone know, we will typically throw our pocket supercomputers to the facet after changing into conscious of simply how a lot time we’ve spent scrolling by way of undesirable choices, or feeling sudden stabs of loneliness amid an ocean of choices. That highly effective isolation is on the coronary heart of femMasculine’s queries into gender and sexuality — however on the finish, there’s a approach out of the morass.

“At one point as an artist, I realized you can just make new culture — and I feel like that’s what I want to do in this show,” Seaman says. “Give permission for people to own whatever culture they want to make.”

Thursday-Saturday, by way of Oct. 12, 8pm,
Brava’s Cabaret
2773 24th St., SF.
Tickets and extra data right here.

Navigating gender’s fluidity in a sea of apps with ‘#femMASCULINE’

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